11.27.09
the artist me
I am starting to reinvent myself … at least this is what I have in mind. I am glad (not really … but being unemployed has its good parts also) I have some free time to be able to rediscover what I want to do next, which way to go and what should I do in order to reach my ideals!
DESIGN, PHOTO, PAINTING
let’s go for it!
After a week of lots of hard work and stress and thinking, and reading, watching tutorials, drawing, erasing, drawing again, a tone of recycled paper used for sketches and models … I have finalized the project “Puiul Mot” … the character in the creative brief i have received. I am not very happy with the result of my work, not happy at all … I don’t like the colors – there are too dark, too cold … and I think the most important mistake is the fact that I have designed the character on paper first … it should have been made in photoshop directly, not imported!
But I am proud of myself for having a “result” at all! I am proud that I had the courage and initiative to finish this project and further send it! It is only the start!
So here you are some pictures with the little character … I liked it more on paper!
11.17.09
allyice … in wonderlands
Hello, let me introduce myself, this is me, excuse me for been undressed … but I kind of lacked ideas regarding clothing!
11.14.09
totem
for those who would want to find a sense for this image … please do. I have already created it 
it would be too much for me to give it a meaning … eventhough for me it has one
11.12.09
christmas carols cd cover
I was asked to came with an option for the new cover for the album of Cleopatra Stratan … for a Christmas Carols CD cover …. I guess I’m not that in the mood for Christmas … so this was what I came with ! Actually I like it very much … but I guess they had some other expectations ….
I think I’ll get back on my old habits and start shooting all over bucharest early in the morning and late at night …. this might be a good idea!
11.07.09
series: mini – tenis
I am thinking about building series of pictures, and publish them as series … I have started with mini-tenis … nothing in particular …. I think it was simply the easiest series … I didn’t have too many pictures to choose from so I had to use what I had … I wanted to build this series a long time ago … unfortunately I haven’t being able to get my draft material for the final work. I am not sure what will follow after this … it might be peninsula, or days at home … or buildings in bucharest … or maybe street pats … or homeless …. too early to think about it ….
the series “mini-tenis” includes four pictures: the school, balls, the gate and the game. The were all taken on the same day. It was a cold saturday morning of March I think …. it was getting warmer and warmer, as a sign that the summer will soon come.
end of story
11.05.09
something is really going wrong …
The last time this happened it was for or five ears ago …. I was in visit at my sister, it was late in the night. I can’t remember whether we went in a club and we came back home … or it was just that I was very tiered. I was not hungry but I knew I had to eat something … I have mentioned a time ago that each time I feel sick I eat something and start feeling a bit better. I tried to eat something but didn’t got the chance as I lost my conscience before. I think I hit the table somehow with my back as I had a terrible bruise on my back …. my sister got very scared as I had some convulsions ….
it didn’t happened again …. even though I had the feeling of being dizzy or having head each, very often even lately …. not until now …
It was strange … usually I feel sick before … I wake up dizzy or have such a feeling … but I woke up normal. Took my laptop and went in the kitchen for the breakfast. I placed my laptop on the table and wanted to take the bread. I started getting cold … but it is not the feeling of being cold … it start’s with the hands. They get colder and colder. You feel them dry and bloodless. Then it gets to the face. You feel needles in your cheeks. They’re getting colder and colder. And also you feel them dry … like there would be no blood running into your veins. … I didn’t panicked … I usually control these kind of feelings, and manage to pass over. Some time ago I had a discussion with Budri about spasmodically. He teached me a very interesting lesson about spasmodics. When people usually have the symptoms of getting spasmodic they get panicked, which will increase the level of adrenaline into their blood and get their hart run faster, which will finally go to collapse and loosing conscience. Since this discussion I have tried to control my symptoms and I must admit it really works. I have also tried today, I stood on the chair let the bread on the table …. and then …. then I felt like I was in my bead. It was worm and comfy. I know I dreamed about something … I can’t really remember what it was about … but I know I wandered what have happened with me … whether I have dreamed that I woke up and went in the kitchen … then I realized I was laying on the kitchen’s floor … the chair was down also … I had a taste of blood in my mouth … I didn’t knew what have happened … I couldn’t realize what was going on … then I remembered I felt sick, and the symptoms I had before … I started making sens about what have happened to me … I wanted to get up, but I couldn’t … the second part of the crisis was about to start …. I stood there as the convulsions shake my body … I felt cold … as the floor was cold … I was trembling … Soon after the convulsions … the sensation of not being able to control my body passed … I was able to get up, but still had to sit in order to get in touch with the real world. I realized then that it was one of my lips that was bleeding not my nose as I thought. I eat a banana – for the sweets, as usually these crisis are because of lack of sweets/ sugar into the blood … I started feeling a bit better … and was able to get to the bathroom … I looked into the mirror … I saw my face dirty with blood … my lip in broken and still bleeding … an ugly bruise under the right eye … still humanly acceptable … I look like after a bad fight with my boyfriend … if I had one … so I can justify …. I washed my face … still couldn’t wash it very good as I still felt dizzy and thought it would be much better to go in to the bead. I reached my comfy bead … and tried to put myself together …. still had the bad head each …. and felt my bones heavy …
I stood a couple of minutes in my bead …. couldn’t do anything … just thought what should I do next … I feel much better now … I have cleaned the blood into the kitchen, and eat something. I still feel dehydrated … like there would be no blood running into my veins … I feel my skin dry … I can’t think which could have been the cause of this crisis … I haven’t felt bad … for a long time … I had a terrible head each yesterday … but it was nothing unusual about that ….
It came to my mind … something foolish and strange … when I touched my skin … and felt it very dry … it came to my mind that is feels like the skin of a dead man … the skin of my past uncle … it came to my mind the fact that last night I felt the smell of my past uncle …
some things never get old ….
when I was little we used to have such a little table … with some small chairs … like those chairs little girl have for their dolls … there were wooden chairs. We used to have breakfast on that table … I can’t really remember what have happened to that table …. nor to the chairs … maybe I still can find them somewhere at home ….
